Last week I messed up at work. It was such a big mistake that my colleague and I turned white when we realized the situation we were caught in. We were in complete disbelief and fear that I went to hide in the toilet, and my mind was blank. I couldn’t even cry because the whole situation was overwhelming.

Even though we could see the fireworks that night, we were just so affected by the whole situation that we stoned.

A year back, Mark told me to enjoy being a student because there is so much liberty to make mistakes and get away with it. Today, I can absolutely wrap my mind around that thought. It is okay if the smart aleck in my class tries to put down my presentation during Q&A, it is okay if my ideas are not fantastic, because these are just papers and reports that will not materialize… it was cost the company nothing.

But when you’re out there in the world, a mistake is equivalent to jeopardizing the company’s interest/vision/profits.

I was so traumatized by the entire incident that I didn’t sleep well that night.

Finally, we accounted to our supervisor.
He wasn’t angry!! But we just got to pay for our mistake.

At the end of the day, I thank God for such a gracious and understanding supervisor and great (but annoying) colleague who tried to make me think of some other thing so we can focus on the other tasks on hand.

Tomorrow, I have my school’s internship module briefing/interview. I have not done up my resume according to the way they wanted. Roar.

Everything is just overwhelming, but may I find peace and strength in God.