After watching The Blind Side, I kept thinking about courage.

What is courage?
When do I need courage?

The night before, my good friend and I had this very long message conversation about school and the new year. We shared about the uncertainty of this new year and some of our desires.
Suddenly, we no longer wanted to grow up so we came up with a farcical future of what will happen in the future.

BUT that did not prevent us from thinking about the issue-the one that weigh our heart down.

:’(

It hurts when the answer that you hope to hear never makes it your ear. And since as much as I would love to run away, to push away all thoughts, to continue living my life as though nothing happened, I couldn't!! Subsequently, I watched the blind side and it was an amazing movie. There were so many moments that I wished would never end. The words captivated me, the plot moved me to tears, the songs were so apt. Most importantly, as I sat there watching the credits roll, I silently told myself, “yes gloria, it’s time to summon all your courage for 2010”.

I read a couple of passages that talked about courage and what I gathered about courage is that:

Courage is holding on to our confidence in God to face what's ahead of us. And when we come face to face with the issue, we stand boldly and firmly determined to live a life that is a witness for Christ because He is our hope.

Like what Michael said in the movie,
“Sometimes you might not even know why you’re doing something. I mean, any fool can have courage. But honor, that’s the real reason you either do something or you don’t. It’s who you want to be. “


*sigh* The words are easy to articulate but the actions are difficult to carry through. Nonetheless, I think I am slowly letting my perspectives and mindset be changed, and find courage by seeking first ye His kingdom.