For the past few days, my body have been screaming hate to me. Late nights, insufficient rest, irregular meals, and then when I felt myself falling sick, I did absolutely nothing, except continue my wonderful lifestyle.

In much anger, with the strife within my own body, it declared war. My body aches, not from floorball but from the fever, my entire body is scorching hot, even blinking hurts, and my throat is badly swollen from all the sneezing and what nots.

When these started showing, still, I continued with my lifestyle...until this evening when I decided that there's absolutely no way I can self medicate.

It's not like I don't know that I ought to treat my body a little better, it's not that I don't know that rest is important. I know. In fact, I have even talked about how I will make sure that this semester, I will NOT succumb to too many late nights. Better time management yo!!

Then I realize it's not my time management. It's my lack of discipline to do something as important as sleep. Why is it that I am so willing to give up my night hours to read, to chat on skype, to write my notes, to do my assignments. Even as my body does a suppressed writhing with all the pain and tiredness from sickness itself, I still have no answer and no resolution(yet) to do something about my lifestyle. Or rather, I cannot find the heart within me to make resolutions that I can and will stick to to take better care of my body.

3 days MC for me to think. (doubt i'd use all), BUT I pray that God will teach me how to move on from here.