That evening, my friend and I spent 4 hours at a dimly lit playground, eating home cooked packed dinner and confiding in each other about our perspectives on the multifarious topics we talked about. ☺ Once again, it just made meeting up with her so wonderful!!
Hazy future… With all that haze that’s choking my throat, I think the haze have also blurred my vision of the future. It has come to a point where we can no longer just go about our days saying “I don’t know” what we want to do with our future. She reminded me that we should not look at the micro picture, even though we live in economist society. WHAT IS YOUR MAIN PURPOSE?? Seriously, she asked me that question at least 5 times that day. Then influenced by Ailing and Eehan, she pulled the same tactic that they pulled on her and got me thinking about ministry on an entirely new level. As much as it is convenient and in line with my character to shrug it off with a smile and say “I don’t know” when asked to consider such a grave matter, this time, I shall refrain from doing so and give it some thought having the big question in mind; To search my motivations once again.
I shared about an event that came along with a lot of uncertainty, fear and an unwillingness to be found vulnerable again. I did not want to put myself in a situation where I am exposed to being hurt again. Obviously a very inward looking perspective but during one of my cogitating moments, I thought about how in 2 Tim 2:24-26, it was written that…
And the Lord’s servant must not quarrel; instead, he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their sense and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will.
Because of this, I will continue where I am placed now.
Relationships… It was strange how much I saw myself in her when she shared. Probably that’s why we’re the best of friends. <3 Having once studied psychology, we both disagreed with how love was defined in such scientific terms. Get real! As much as I look stupid when it comes to relationship, and let’s not even go about how dense I can be, that night was a revelation to both my friend and myself that there are many things we have learnt and are still learning especially when it comes to our actions. Yeah! I ought to behave!!! I remember once feeling rather disdained about a particular topic that I had with another of my friend about one and a half year back? At that moment, I wondered why in the world did I have such an old-fashioned friend! Haha. Only to realize after last year that it was not about being old-fashioned, but being a godly woman!! Sigh, tough lessons learnt but worthy lessons. ☺
My experiences may not be rich, but they were relevant enough to be shared with my bestfriend and after our night out, I decided that one of these days I should take some time to pen down all my lessons so that I will not commit them again. It’s good enough to be a book man. Thank God for friends who can react in horror and be mortified over my actions so that I can be shocked by such reactions and learn where I go wrong. No joke.
I shall keep the other sharings for another time. Reading awaits… Meanwhile, enjoy my favourite advertisement. By far one of the advertisements that left a lasting impression and it’s NOT because it’s slap stick! ☺
