After a year, I finally found time to transfer my stuff from my old computer to my mac. ☺ Of course I also cleared the redundant stuff.

As I was clearing, I read the scripts that I wrote for Short and Sweet, Love Is…, The Christmas Switch, The Last Supper event, the platform, my skin-deep letters and reflections, my uninspiring, typical teenage angst outbursts in the form of words etc.

Glad I’ve moved on. On top of that, I’m glad it reignited my passion and love for art and drama. And I think it’s very apt that my birthday celebration is going to take in the form of a themed picnic at Fort Canning under a star lit sky and an outdoor Shakespeare romance comedy-Much Ado About Nothing. I’m beyond thrilled. ☺ To think I was about to give up waiting for my birthday celebration even though Daryl insists it MUST materialize… and now, this is really exciting!! Here’s an advanced thank you to Charis, Sarah, Declan, Daryl, Rom, Vee, Sherm, Gwen, Dazz, Ranald, Peng, Eirene, Jon and Ben!!!

Back to my clearing up…

Photographs of my eye candies pop up in the various folders and I smiled thinking of those days when my friend and I would actually take super long walks especially during Maths lessons, or the times when I day dreamed in class and my friend would secretly take photos of me, and the memories when I stared out of the window during art and lit exams and to my amusement my eye candy would be standing across!!
Haha…

Then there were the more serious documents, like the time when SPY002 almost closed down, the letters from vee and rom, my own reflections, the msn chats I had with rom. It was a very humbling experience reading all these documents because I remember myself not making the effort to get to know my co-worker or praying for the cg as a whole till the later part. I also recollect the times when I had to go through many difficult lessons, discouragements, and it amaze me how at the end, as I penned down my reflections every month, I thank God for seeing through S&P, seeing through the leaders, the members, the passion and help that rom and vee gave to us… ☺
I AM REALLY VERY THANKFUL!!!

It also reminded me how I always go to God with my spectrum of emotions but the same 3 words “I don’t know”.

I don’t know what to do with the ministry where I’m placed
I don’t know how to respond to the girls
I don’t know how to prepare the lesson
I don’t know if I can handle so many things
I don’t know how long more I will be with this ministry
I don’t know how to share in a relevant manner
I don’t know how to handle the situation
I don’t know…
I don’t know…
I don’t know…

It is comforting to know that God knows that I don’t know many things, but still, He chose me and guided my path, and sometimes even send people into my life to rebuke, teach, shake, hug, kiss, carry and lead me.

2Cor. 12:9 And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may dwell in me.

Then there were crazy msn chats, some of which I could barely recollect, the capitalization used when my friend and I were so mad with each other and trying to “reason” things out, and especially the weirdest msn chats I had with Marcus and CT that while reading it, I was torn between laughing and crying. It was uncanny that that evening, 2 of my friends suddenly messaged me to ask how have I been after not talking or meeting up for 2 years? I’m amused. TELEPATHY!!! Hahha. ;) To not give people the impression that I only have senseless crazy chats, I also had very serious and encouraging chats with a few people. But I’d keep it for another day(maybe).

This blog post is taking too long to pen. Sigh.
I’m tired.