On Vesak Day, I finally spent an entire day at home packing my typhoon and earthquake hit table. Chanced upon all the letters, notes, and cards that my friends wrote to me and I just couldn't stop brimming from ear to ear. As i re read some, memories of me skipping chinese lesson and then running off to play basketball came flashing into my mind, the tears that I shed over small little trivial incidents just came by like memories on loop. :) Really miss those days but I am really very thankful that I am still in close contact with my secondary school friends. Actually met up with my very tall friend-George(i insist on this nickname!) and we had such a good time watching Iron Man and laughing so hard till i had hiccups TWICE. Haha.

Who would have thought that stress didn't end at A levels?

For nights I've been having trouble sleeping. Although some say it's contributed by my coffee obsession, but seriously, what kept me awake was my anxiety about which Uni would accept me. Which course should I take? What would i be doing in the future? It was killing me softly. Unable to confront my fears, I found myself being haunted by it every night!!! It was like a nightmare in which I couldn't wake up from!!! To be honest, laughing was my way of covering up for many of my fears and anxieties.

Yesterday night, my parents drove me up the wall pressurizing me about Uni acceptance, and how is it that I've not received replies etc. On top of that, I was actually sad to find out that more and more of my friends are leaving this melting island. Sense of loss and frustration was just looming around me like an aura. After I sent out the prayer list for the girls' cg, I took time to pray too.

"And this is the confidence that we have toward Him, that if we ask anything according to His will He hears us. "-1 John 5:14

Felt a little at ease after that. However, sleeping was still difficult so spent the night watching japanese shows online, appreciating classical music and even attempted sketching. I almost felt resigned to take up the NTU ADM course, so I thought I might as well hype myself up for it. Yea, you can see how quickly I was losing my mind. I did 2 portraits with my new 2B, 3B, 4B, 5B, 6B and charcoal pencils which I bought on impulse when I was at Bras Basah yesterday. Indeed, I lost it.

Finally, after such a long time, I decided to just check my application status and when I saw 'Congratulations' from SMU, I think i understand what Dazz meant when she squeled upon receiving her package :) My hands were shaking badly that i dropped my phone, after which I screamed for a good few seconds, and unknowingly tears streamed down my face, and I burst into the 'Testify' song!!! After which, dazz, sherm and myself screamed again until Aunty called and that joy and excitement almost made me faint. WHAHAHA. =} God is really good. So good. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. :')

Today, I will not think about which Uni. Yet. Let me busk in this moment :)

Thank you God. :')