I've worked with TTRP for about 1 month plus. Initially, it was very stressful and trying. At times i wondered whether it was a right choice to take up that job offer. There were many dramas-running marathon on the eve of CNY, walking back and forth the entire stretch of Clarke Quay and still not being able to find a particular shop, the horrors i get along with my colleagues from my boss, being chased by insects and well the list goes on.

"quit your job since you don't enjoy it"
"it's supposed to be your holiday job, not a i'm-out-to-kill-myself job"
"quit your job!"
"quit your job!!"
"QUIT YOUR JOB!!!"
"!!!! QUIT YOUR JOB!!!!"

Ok. Point taken.

Yet, it's not about the end of the job and the many things that awaits me like my A level results(tomorrow), and Alpha launch!!

What have I learnt? Have i grew spiritually? Or did I get into the mode of complaining like there's no tomorrow?

Bawling my eyes out was the norm for the first 2-3 weeks accompanied by my incessant complains about the sort of job i had to do. Bitter. That's the feeling.

"If we live in the spirit, let us also walk in the spirit"-Galatians 5:25

One thing- I need to be more vigilant, having eyes fixed on Jesus. The sort of "motivation" i had was 'when will it all end?'. Neither was it the most encouraging thing to have in mind nor was it at all inspirational. NO WAY.

Trusting in God's plan for me became a situation, rather than a lifestyle, which shouldn't be the case. Then, it's almost the same as peope who treat God as a help hotline, 24/7. My realization of this caused me to completely change my attitude as i go to work each day. How could i tell? i stopped waking up at 9am. (by the way, start works at 9!!) Dragging my feet to work was history. The way i reacted to work thrown at me became a cheerful heart filled with anticipitation of what i could learn from this task. I became more willing and was more open to talk to my colleagues. Praise God!



A week ago, it was my friend's birthday. 19 years on this earth. Been there, done that. So ting hui and i were cracking our brains as to what to get for her. Clothes? She has countless. Accessories? Countless. A birthday card filled with our love messages? She already know all those, we don't need a special day just to profess our love. Suddenly a spark on inspiration came to us, we created a comic strip on hearts with drawings and thought provoking questions as well as thoughts which were personal in the hope that we get her thinking about some deeper issues pertaining to one's existence. Can we go on our entire life always running and chasing after good grades, recognition from our superiors, and then go through the job. There's more to this life. Yes, that was the theme song for her birthday too.

Ting Hui and I were simply amazed that we completed her present in a night. I guess it was the best present we have ever given her, probably also because it meant so much to us.

Is there more to this life than living and dying, trying to make it through the day?