2 blogs in one day. Oh how gloria loves to exhibit her extremities :)

I laid in bed from 3.30pm-4:57pm under my covers. A luxury to do that on a beautiful afternoon. No music playing from any source, no MP3 plugged into my ears, just some sound from nature-the chirpping of the birds, the cars going by, earoplans, and some rare moments, even hearing the sound of silence.

Well, i can't exactly say i was thinking about a particular thing, perhaps all i really wanted to do was to be silent, to take time to listen, letting no fear inhabit me. My close friends can testify that i am not a fan of Corrine May. However, during my moments of just lying there, the tune of 5 loaves and two fish came to my mind and i remembered listening to this song on my way home a few days ago and now i think it reflects the state of mind i'm in.

I often think about that boy
when I'm feeling small
and I worry that the work I do
means nothing at all

12 years of education. Before one can proceed on to another education level, there's a lot of readings to do, even desperate tuitions, late nights of mugging, some tears of frustration, and comes the imminent question which i have asked myself, perhaps i'm not the the ONLY ONE. i worry that the work i do means nothing at all

2 weeks back, reneberrry and i had a very heartful sharing. Would my 2 years in JC be something i look back with hot tears? With regret? Pray that i won't because renenberry reminded me that even if my grades don't match up to what my friends/my parents/my tutors/my sisters/the whole world wanted or expected from me, i have to

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your pahts." -proverbs 3:5-6.


But every single tear I cry
is a diamond in His hands
and every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small
I trust in you trust in you

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
no gift is too small